~happycookie

I've sunken yet again into a shade of navy blue
I havnt been on for like ages
and my devation watch have soared to over a 1000 new deviations. I watch too many ppl.
I try to keep up.
but no.
I failed

my art looks like crap. well atleast da ones dat I tried to cg. I generally ruin them by the time I finished inking them

since I have no new inspiration dat I can be bothered drawing. I have sunking into an artist block and have resolved to drawing my manga instead. well more like juz computer editing them. I havn't been out of the house much.

and school
is about to start. I really can't be stuffed.

I'm on a lowwwwww.
so basically I spend every day of my life currantly wondering how I should waste the next. ok. dats a lil over board. but why?!?

so fustrated. my hair's is growing too fast. now it's kinda messy. My flute playing skills have slid, cos of the lack of practise when I was on vacation. I feel soo dead.
So dead dat I would actually wish to go back to school for some normality and routined schedule. it's often in those hours I find comfort and sum inspiration.

then the anxiety of going back to school. facing a new year, new class mates, new teachers, more hmwk and more social and academic burden scares me. and it is more likely that I would make an excuse not to draw more due to the fact that "I have too much other things to do".

ughh... whateva my life is going to be. I would have to face it. time is goes by too fast, I wish I could live in certain moments of my life forever and other never. Truth is, that can never happen. I only now, now.